Preface: this post was inspired by a friend’s review of the game I am about to discuss.
Let me be perfectly and completely honest here: I am shy. In person, I have a hard time making friends, being social, and “opening up.” That’s how I am and that’s okay. It’s me. Once I make a friend, and “open up,” however, it’s really very hard to actually shut me up. No really, ask my mom.
Throughout my life, I have turned to the internet in more ways than one, just to be able to interact and socialize with people. It’s worked. I have made some life-long friends and even my boyfriend, doing just that.
Now here is where I admit I have become a gamer nerd.
When I first started talking and really dating Justin, he was playing an MMORPG (multi-media online role playing game) called FFXI (Final Fantasy Eleven). In my growing up, I had played many video games both online and not, but this was a game above the rest.
After selecting a character, naming her, and starting the game, I dove right into killing monsters, gaining experience, and learning the “ropes” from Justin. While it was interesting and fun, I didn’t really get into it much until I received an item from him that allowed me to get into his “linkshell” (which, for those who aren’t familiar with FFXI or MMORPGs, is like a chat room of sorts).
The people in the linkshell were overwhelmingly helpful in everything that I needed to do in the game.
But the real fun wasn’t in doing missions or fighting monsters, but in hanging out with the people. Talking and laughing and making jokes. There were three of us girls in the linkshell, and only us three for the longest time. We would hang out in one area, be silly, and harass the boys in the linkshell. Click for an example. :)
There are videos of our randomness on YouTube. Memories embedded in the minds of all who we have had the pleasure of knowing. Here is a video of a random chat in our linkshell from back in the day. If you don’t know what half the acronyms mean, it’s okay. It does take some getting used to.
I’ll admit, when someone would leave the game that I was close to, I would tear up, and often you would find me shed a tear or twenty. When you spend months and months getting to know someone and spending time with them on a daily basis, it becomes rather difficult to say good-bye. From marriage to divorce, having babies to dealing with death, we have been down every path imaginable. The bonds in this game are deeper than the make believe stories and the pixelated characters we play.
The friendships I have made in my course of playing FFXI are life-long. When this games dies and the servers taken down, they will still be a part of my life.
If any of my FFXI friends read this, I love you guys!! Thank you for making my time on the Fairy and Sylph servers so much better!





Mommy of 4 year old Konnor, always and forever my baby, and 10 month old Ariana, the baby girl I have always dreamed of having. My children are hands down my life and the reason for my being. To most of you, it will come as no surprise for me to tell you I would give the world for my babies. They are my rocks, whether they know it or not. 










